旋律

wonderful night with wonderful friends....=)

2012-02-08T16:17:00.003+08:00

you know....having a bunch of frenz like them....
its worth more than anything else ...=)
frenz who care....simply means frenz in need....=)
i love them....=) they lighted up my life....
life isnt that bad after all....
thanks for throwing me into the pool.....
it was FUN....eric....@.@....
as for the dog president.....thanks for being inside the pool as well..joining the fun......
cutting it short...
everyone of you deserve a big hug from me.....
kerhyin huan de jie yun....you guys are "awesome".....with the presents....G-string....OMG! serious??? who's idea was taht???
kit yeng and stevo...thanks for the card...though it doesnt made it through a surprise....=) it was heart warming enough......
thank you for the cake as well.....it was cute....=)
love you guys....as much as i love the night sky....
random shit....whats with the night sky anyway...
bla bla bla....thats all...=) have FUN studying !
screw you EOS!

2012-02-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take it slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No, I don't wanna mess this thing up
No, I don't wanna push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No, I don't wanna mess this thing up
No, I don't wanna push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No, I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No, I don't wanna mess this thing up
I don't wanna push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright,

Ooh, let's do this right,
Just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight
Kiss goodnight

one of my wish for bday...

2012-02-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

CAN I BE AS HOT AS ELENA GILBERT?????
LOL!!!!!!

shoo shoo........

2012-01-18T12:56:00.002+08:00

pls grant me the courage to face all these by myself...
after all this months...
i bet it wont be a waste of time trying to let go...
come on ji ching...
i noe youre braver than u think u are...
u need to face this soon anyhow...
be brave pls....
would anyone just give me a hug now....?
sigh......bad dreams keep haunting me at night...
shoo shoo !!!!! =(

another boring weekend....=)

2012-01-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

salmon macaroni with cream sauce...=)

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fried rice and chicken soup.....@.@....ahhahaa...=)

Meal.......time! XD

2012-01-14T20:52:00.004+08:00

sick of posting my meal on fb.......so yea....im putting it right here....=)
my lunch and dinner for today....
its the onli time im longing for .......

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honey chicken and stir fried vege with shrimp...=)

fried egg with meat and baked beans together with it ...a quick boil vege with oyster sauce...=)

我今年二十一岁。。

2012-01-08T23:39:00.003+08:00

我今年二十一岁。。。
很多话语可以选择不要听。。。
很多想要表达的东西。。。一定要经过到脑才能把它说出口。。。
要时时顾及别人感受。。

我今年二十一岁。。。
不再是个小孩。。。
不再需要什么依靠。。。
很多时候。。。做的决定要懂得负责。。。

我今年二十一岁。。。
不再能像小孩一样。。。
蹉跎岁月。。。
要做的每一件事。。。都应该深思后果。。。

我今见二十一岁。。。
不能像小孩一样。。。
遇见什么事都只会哭。。。
要会懂得控制自己的情绪。。。
该想的不该想的。。。都应该清楚。。。

我今年二十一岁。。。
要懂得开始学习理智地看待事情。。。
不能再觉得这个。。。“世界很和平”

我今年二十一岁。。。
不能再相信。。。我对他好。。就会有相同的待遇。。。
也不能因太熟而太相信。。。

我今年二十一岁。。。
知道有些爱情是只能享受过程。。。
或默默地隐藏。。。默默地付出。。。
懂得爱。。。是为彼此祝福。。。
同时也相信。。。
远方。。。会有个人在等我。。。

爱是为彼此祝福

2012-01-07T23:55:00.001+08:00

休息是为了走更长的路
你就是我的旅途
都是因为你我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最后
但我遗失了地图
谁给谁束缚谁比谁辛苦
爱到深处才会领悟
好的事情最后虽然结束
感动十分就有十分满足
谢谢你是你陪我走过那些路
痛是以后无法再给你幸福
好的事情也许能够重复
感动时分就算纷纷模糊
不要哭至少你和我记得很清楚
爱是为彼此祝福

IM AWESOME....and hello 2012!

2012-01-06T21:13:00.005+08:00

well.....its time to update myself with some new year resolutions....
its comes a bit late but its better late than never...
before starting anew....
would like to do a brief summary on what i'd remember for the year 2011...=)

it had been like a roller coaster ride....
in a good way....it shows me what life is all about...
at the same time...it reminds me that its time for me to grow up...
ups and downs had made me stronger...
well..thanks to a few great frenz that ive met this year..
kudos to eric and see wei....for alwayz being there.....especially during those tough time when i broke up with my ex...not forgetting to thank rubbish god too.....:)
well...im officially okay now....
i survived! yay! applause to myself...
it freaked me out when i glance through my blog post...
where almost 80 percent was about negative stuffs....
...however..its time for a change this new year...

2011 starts with a great cny where i spent the splendid festive season with my family and relatives @ hong kong...=)
then....go on with preparing with my a level trials...
together with me was a rocky relationship....
but it was still fine until june....
and i broke up with him right after our last trip together....
well......finishing my a levels in june.......
starting a new chapter of my life with new frenz...
new close frenz in a new environment.....THE "mAd" School....
starting to get close with a few frenz like rig, swei, wei hao and kai ming...
as stories were shared, groups were formed....
ppl are united by a new secret gang called INTECOM.....LOL
there are pros and cons noeing this bunch of frenz..
indeed they made my life jolly and gleeful ...
but at the same time....i learn a lot of things which im not suppose to learn...
for instance...vulgar words?? smack head...

after bragging for so long.....
its time to start talking bout some new year stuffs....yet to be done..
my new year resolution would be...:

1) stop "vulgarizing"
2) improve my english
3) work harder, play harder but not often
4) noe how to prioritize things rather than avoiding stuffs
5) let go of things that are not meant to be
6) grow wiser everyday
7) learn to protect myself ....in every aspect
8) be ready get bac up even there is a tough fall
9) learn to face problems and stress in a good way....
10) spend more time with my family

there are more to add as days pass.....coz my mind just get wiser and wiser....=p...
well....i hope that i will be able to fulfill all my resolution and be someone awesome at the end of 2012.....=)

stay away from me........love.....

2012-01-03T22:27:00.003+08:00

oh common!
control yourself....
you aint gonna get yourself hurt anymore...
no more!
no more cheesy love stuffs now....
stay focus!
built your steel coated heart and fight for your career with your life!
NO MORE LOVE STUFFS FOR NOW...
or years to come......
the next tear i shed....should be due to happiness.....

grateful......

2011-12-26T23:30:00.003+08:00

i can see colours in your life without me...
and im starting to see lights in my path...
learning to get rid of the darkness after a terrific storm
needs courage ......a lot of them...
bits and bits of you are shining.....with your frenz...
happiness is showing in your face..
yes....
i need to be happier than u...
y am i suffering alone there???? for such a long time???
i should be grateful...
coz im in line to searching for a better...
the one who truly noes what he wans in life..
wat is his future...
and noes what he is doing....

the true man...
who cares.....
who's mature enough to think of others.....
who will never fear for fear....
who dont flirt with girls....and only loves the one he truly loves..
the one who show his only affection to his family and his one and only..
THE MAN.....who is always there to help me when im in trouble...
the man ...who can very much sacrifice himself for me...
there's no one like this....
but ive met one in the past....
too sad to let him walked out of my life...
but....he'll alwayz be my best fren forever....=)
aka rubbish god.....
this is for u....
the one that i admire.....=)

MADDD!!!!

2011-12-22T15:15:00.003+08:00

alright....
its time for me to think...
reflect on wat im doing so far....
well....
from wat i see with my naked eyes...
i saw adipose tissues everywhere around my body!
OMG!!! i'd alwayz give excuse to myself to eat more..
why?????
have i lost my self control????????
y is my self control declining in the first place???
ive no motivation to study .....
everything is so left behind...
where the hell is my priority in life???
smack head! wake up!!!!!!!!
stop lagging.....stop wasting money and time...!!!!
LEE JI CHING!!!!
stop chasing over things that is not right for you!
let the time and person prove everything that is meant for you...
cant u just wait???
and do wat are u suppose to do now??
STOP procrastinating!!!!
youre in a MAD SCHOOL!!! damn it!

朋友吗？？？

2011-12-19T21:28:00.003+08:00

你告诉我说你希望我们还是朋友。。。
我。。。。沉默。。
因为。。我还不清楚自己要的是什么。。。
怎么样才能彻底的放下。。。
你说的朋友。。是 hi bye friend.....还是好朋友呢？？
因为你每一次都说要做回朋友。。。
可是。。你每一次都让我失望。。。
从我踏出第一步想与你做回朋友的时刻。。
你却慢慢地又离我远去。。。
让我觉得。。。我们根本都不像朋友。。。
跟陌生人没差别。。
对不起。。
不是我不想回应。。。
只是我想暂时把你搁在一旁。。。
让我彻彻底底地把我们的一切放下。。。
也许那时。。。我们再做回朋友吧。。。
要怪。。。就怪曾经的我爱你太深了。。。
现在的我。。。没盼望什么。。。
看见你一直与人通信息。。。讲电话。。
对。。。我还是有一种挫伤的感觉。。
可是。。。我已慢慢地开始接受。。。
祝福你吧。。
请你。。。。
如果你是想做hibye 朋友的话。。。
不如干脆就当回陌生人。。。
不然真的没什么必要再当回朋友。。。
就此搁笔。。。。

im grateful to have you.....yes...you...who is reading this now...=)

2011-12-16T20:23:00.003+08:00

thank you...
for making me forgetting the pass for just one second..
thank you for letting me noe that im still worth something in your eyes...
its alwayz these bits of things that makes me carry on with my life without hesitating the pass.....
thanks for being there when im down.....
thanks for bringing bac my confidence once again..
im grateful to have all these wonderful ppl with me...
i'll leave everything to god .....
to decide which path to choose.....

what the hell????

2011-12-15T19:36:00.002+08:00

i felt something...
but im trying to ignore it....
its ridiculous...
but im also trying to ignore it..
its something that i'd never felt for a long time..
again...im ignoring it....
and now i found myself sick of ignoring it...
wth am i doing???

air topic is a disaster.....

2011-12-14T00:20:00.001+08:00

okay.......i promise myself....
to start doing my air topic tomolo.....
i will push myself to the max!!!!!
pls.....bao you wo!!!!

christmas....the time of my life....=)

2011-12-13T21:29:00.002+08:00

its christmas time....
the best time of the year....
anywayz santa....
i wish that i will have a great christmas this year.....=)
be it with family or friends...
just wish that everything bout christmas is peaceful and happy..
a night filled with christmas atmosphere would be perfect....
and santa.....
thanks for giving me such a wonderful year this year...
will stay stronger and happier with every fall u gave me...
and i will put on a smile....
and carry on with the unexpected path u paved for me....
well.....life is full of surprises ....arent they????

someone who noes me well enough......

2011-12-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

its so cool that a friend actually noes you so well...
both of us had never quarrel...
coz we talk our hearts out....
we act like kids.....
just because of this....
we became closer...
i felt so grateful to have a friend like you ONG KERHYIN....=)
i noe that u will back me up no matter wat...
u just mean a lot to me....=)
hehehe......im sincerely grateful to have you...=)

move on!!!!!!

2011-12-07T19:18:00.002+08:00

it hurts.....but i need to move on...
i cant slow down any longer....
ive wasted too much time on something ....
priority needs to be set to something that worth my time....
investing on something that brings happiness is much more worth while...
my dear...
u hurt me....
i admit it....and accept it...
and ...i'll move on ....

the stranger next door....

2011-12-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

if its possible....
i wish not to see you again....
not in this form....
not in the way u act now towards me...
go away.....
if u think its worth it to neglect your studies...
and forget who you once were...
just for a girl...
well.....good luck man....
im so disappointed that u din even turn up on the meeting to discuss on our fren;s bday...
hopeless....
im really disappointed in you..
sacrificing so much for that girl....
was actually worth your everything...
wow! all i can say is good luck....
and dun ever talk to me again....
you are not the one i once knew.....
stranger....

是非之地不久留。。。。

2011-12-01T01:52:00.002+08:00

不喜欢听。。。
不想管。。。
所以每当有关朋友之间的传言。。
我都不想听。。。
不想给意见。。。
不想传。。。

其实我还搞不清楚。。。
不想听的原因。。。
是因为害怕听见他的东西。。。
还是。。。
害怕传闻的真假。。。
还是。。
我真的不想说别人的坏话。。

做朋友的。。
不是应该当面问。。
不去传。。。
力挺朋友的吗？？？
问清楚了。。就应该封嘴。。。
这样才是出于真诚的关心。。。
每当听见别人开始闲聊其他人绯闻。。
我都会开始躲避。。。

真想找一个没有是非的地方。。。。
快快乐乐的生活。。。
寻找自己想要的东西。。。
做自己想要的事。。。。
是非请离开我。。。。

忆难忘。。。

2011-12-01T01:45:00.002+08:00

回忆。。。
甜蜜。。。
心酸。。。
怀念。。。
珍惜。。。
可惜。。。
人面不知何处去，桃花依旧笑春风。。。。

不知你。。。有没有回想起那些点点滴滴。。。
仿佛一切历历在目。。
像昨天发生的事。。。
不知我有没有机会再尝试那种回忆。。。
也许哪一些已成为别人的了。。。。

where'd you go???

2011-11-29T20:18:00.002+08:00

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
i miss you....LG

过路人。。。。。

2011-11-27T12:46:00.003+08:00

为什么每一次都要因为group outing 才能说到话？
不见你平时自动跟我说话？？
不是我刻意爱理不理你。。。
是真的你令我觉得。。。
我根本不像你的朋友。。。。。
我们彼此已没有共同话题。。。
你宁愿花你全部的时间在他们身上。。。
却也一点也不留给我。。
你说我变得粗鲁了。。。
为什么你又不说你最近交流的人都很斯文。。
请你不要把我跟他们比。。。
我知道。。我不比她们善解人意。。。
不比她们对你斯文体贴。。。。
不比她们美丽可爱。。。
请不要问我为什么我对你爱理不理的。。。
因为我对每个男生都是这样。。。
我只会对曾经的你温柔撒娇。。。
可是你失去了我。。。
我需要对你像以前那样嘛？？？
你说你知道应该怎么做。。。
可是我却认为你一点也不会处理事情。。。
请你不要一次又一次地。。。
伤害我对你的心。。。
我封锁了这颗心。。。是因为它再也承受不了你对他的伤害。。。
如果当时。。。我和她都在场。。。
也许。。。你关心的人一定不是我。。。
因为你只会对一些比我漂亮比我斯文的人好。。。
更能肯定的是。。。。
我现在已不曾在你脑海或心中出现过。。。
你可以反驳我写的东西。。。
可是你不曾反驳过。。。
就证明。。。你再也不关心。。。
不知多久，你没看我写的东西。。。
也许你再也不会看了。。。。

weekends........again.....

2011-11-25T13:45:00.003+08:00

OMG its weekend again...
its like everyone is bringing bfs bac ....
chilling the whole weekend out....!
wat should i do???
hmmm....luckily i still have chin with me.....
=)
sigh sigh sigh!!!!! GRRRRR!!!!!
kays........
need to spend some time figure out how to fill in all these SINGLE　time......=)
DRAMA and movies perhaps.....?? HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

2011-11-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

真的很讨厌被可怜的感觉。。。

F!!! i just hate wednesday....

2011-11-23T18:25:00.002+08:00

had a hard day today...
didnt go as smooth as it seems....
sigh....
who to blame???
myself of course...
for not preparing wisely may be???
or blame myself for not practicing...?
im kinda worry for my OSCE exam in december..
clinical skills were suppose to be wat i like the most..
but after today...
it made me felt that i was stupid!
so stupid that i cant even communicate well with the stimulated patient...
im starting to wonder who am i now....
and wat did i achieve so far...?
am i having too much fun until i neglected my studies??
i thought i was on the right track.,..
oh come on...
im starting to pity myself...
F! i need to fight bac my confidence....
to be the one that ppl could look up to......
F myself man!

生日

2011-11-22T23:30:00.003+08:00

生日时。。。
不需要特别的热闹。。
不需要。。特别多的朋友。。一起庆祝。。
只要能与一些真的记得自己的生日的人。。。
在乎自己的人庆祝。。。
哪怕只是一两位。。。都已温暖我的心。。。。=）
小时候。。。很喜欢多多人和我一起庆祝。。
因为都有很多礼物收。。！开心死。。。。！！！哈哈哈
渐渐长大了。。。
就觉得。。生日能简简单单的跟特别的人庆祝。。。
就能很满足。。。。=）
希望每年的生日。。。
都会有特别的人与我一起度过。。。。=）
好友们与亲人的存在。。。。
就是世上最美好的事！！！！！ =）

把今天的blogpost献给一位值得深交的好友。。。。

2011-11-21T12:37:00.004+08:00

今天。。。很特别。。。
因为我要感谢一位认识了三年的好朋友。。
可能表面上。。。
不亲密。。。没有什么身体接触。。。
可是。。。
就是有这份的尊重的存在。。
让我与他在一起时。。很舒服。。。
谢谢他每一天都不停的追看我的生活点滴。。。。
就是有这种很感激很感动的感觉。。。
因为他一直都很贴心。。。
曾经送过我两份礼物。。。
但每一份。。。都曾想过。。。放过心思。。
并不是随随便便的一份礼物。。。
每一段回忆都很深刻。。。。
今天看见了的那份礼物。。。
真的把我吓瞪了。。。
好感动！！！！！！！！
就有股冲动去抱你！！！
谢谢你。。。。炜豪。。。=）

im not perfect.......

2011-11-20T16:27:00.003+08:00

probably.....im just another girl next door...
ordinary looking....not that hot and pretty like others....
but im just happy for not being that pretty or that perfect...
coz onli because of this...
i felt that im human...
alive to feel all the mistakes...
alive to experience all the not so perfect things in life that will shape me into a better person..
being not to take everything for granted...
and learning to appreciate what i gained from hardwork...
perhaps...
we just need to be not so perfect to learn....=)

又一个课程

2011-11-20T16:04:00.003+08:00

为有献上默默地祝福。。。
学会大方。。。
是一件不容易的事。。。
可是。。我愿意学习。。
学习怎么去接受。。。
怎么去原谅。。。怎么做个更好的自己。。。
仇恨。。嫉妒。。。都不是什么好东西。。。
只会更贬低自己。。。
这是人生的一个课程。。。。
每个人都会经历。。。
只是看你能不能从中体会到应该体会的东西。。。
体会了。。。就应该学习。。
也许它就是一个终生受用的良好性格或习惯。。。=）
对。。。我要努力学习大方。。。=）
加油。。。。。。。

thanks......

2011-11-15T23:20:00.003+08:00

eric cheng!
u scared me with your philosophical stuffs.....
and make me more emo....
grrr!!!!!!!!!
scared sei me!!!!
but thanks.....it helps a lot....
and the stupid face of T!
W!
thanks for those who cared...and still do....=)

again.....u lost my trust.....

2011-11-15T21:24:00.004+08:00

will not be part of your life anymore....
if she seems so perfect to you...
i should be happy....
ive no right to comment on anything...
go ahead and try....and see for yourself...
whether is she worth your love and your affection towards her..
for once...
i thought that i am important to you...
but i was fooled ....
fooled so much that i actually believe that i meant something to you...
lust that cause them all....
i meant nothing! nothing at all...
well....if thats wat u wished for ...
fine。。。。
i wont ever care or give a damn bout you...
its over for me and you....

probably.....

2011-11-14T17:50:00.003+08:00

if ever one day i saw you going out with another girl......
dating....
i would probably...
tell myself to ignore my feelings....
and move on.....
shouldnt i?
the moment when i thought of you...
you probably was with another girl...
and thinking of another girl....texting....
after watching the movie...
probably you 'd thought of another girl but not me...
but all i wanna say is....
i onli thought of you when i saw the movie...
sometimes love last but sometimes it hurts instead.....

2011-11-13T11:43:00.002+08:00

当每个男生都为她们神魂颠倒的当儿。。。
我依然活得自由自在。。。
因为我在众目睽睽下。。
依然保持原本的我。。
永不为比较而改变自己。。。

2011-11-13T00:00:00.002+08:00

Finally i see your smile.....=)
hope that you'll talk to me like just now...tomorrow...
you had stop laughing like mad for one week...
its already critical to me....
hope that youre brought bac out of ISU tomolo.....

shot to death without a reason?

2011-11-12T12:52:00.002+08:00

what happen between me and you which was initially close?
i dont feel the bonding between me and you anymore.....
y is that so??
did i do anything wrong???
if i do....as a fren u should tell me...
and not ignoring me the whole week..
i felt invisible....
the feeling is just bad...
tried to make a conversation but ended up with a either a short reply...
or a "stand away from me!!!" reply.....
sigh...
anyway...i dun feel like talking anymore..
up to you....

突然很想你。。。。。。。

2011-11-11T11:29:00.001+08:00

却没有勇气翻阅以往的回忆。。。。
因为目前只记得美好的回忆。。。
往往就是这些回忆让人感触。。。。
很久没有跟你聊了。。。
你好吗？？？
只想对你说。。。我很想你。。。<3

2011-11-11T00:06:00.001+08:00

谢谢你。。。。曾经喜欢我。。。。。
<3.......

cheer me up......=(

2011-11-09T21:09:00.002+08:00

unhappy day today.....
though i wish it was the other way round...
had a hectic day with loads of lecture....
and my emo feeling starts coming bac...
i thought attending choir make me happy...
but as days go by....
i dun feel like going to it anymore...
wanted a duet.....
but end up not as good as others...
and the feeling sucks...
im bac and having dinner now....and its 9 30 at night....
4 lecture notes undone..
and 15 more old lecture notes to be done...
my eyes are dry.....and this definately contributes to my moody feelings today...
cheer me up anyone???
sigh.....
hoping for tomolo or perhaps a day that i can mix with INTECOM ppl..
coz those moments are the onli one will make me happy now....

songs

2011-11-08T20:33:00.002+08:00

listen to those songs brings bac those memories with u....
those times....those feelings....
those places you brought me.....
i miss you...=)
<3.......the one you once was......

hehe......=)

2011-11-06T12:12:00.003+08:00

HALLO!!! anybody misses me today????
today's gonna be another AWESOME day in ipoh!!!! =)
accompanied by piano, TV, FOOD, bed, my own spacious study room...
and most of all.....Parent's LoVe!!!! <3<3<3...
i wonder they if they can buy a house in KL and we live together there...hmmm..
anywayz~!! gonna treasure every moment! =)))
HAPPPYYYYY!!!!!!!! DDAAAAYYYYY!!!! WOOWOWOWOW!!!!

@.@....

2011-11-05T22:32:00.002+08:00

went out the whole day to buy and do stuffs....
and in the end...
not reading a single thing i brought all the way from KL...
when i start to read...
my mind say stop!!!!GO TO SLEEP!!!!!
i noe that i have tonnes to finish...
if i sleep now...
i will never finish the load of work!!
sigh...
should i sleep or should i not????
i can see the blood vessels of my left eye dilating..
swelling, redness, heat, pain of both eyes......
andluckily...there's no lost of function.....
in conclusion....before all the 5 cardinal signs appear....
i've decided to sleep....
coz i dun wanna loose my eyes.....@.@......

Out of love...

2011-11-04T21:46:00.002+08:00

You can never estimate what a girl can do for a boy if she loves him..... Unless the girl doesn't treasure her life and has been fooling around all the time..... Dun ask a girl y she's willing to sacrifice ...... CoZ the onli answer is love.... Unlike boys.... Who is always filled with curiosity..... Anyway.... Pls... To all guys out there...... Treasure girls who fall for you..... And when u reach a certain point of your life....when u finally realize the girl you love will never be yours.... Dun regret.... CoZ it's you who let go of her hand....

SWIM...=)

2011-11-04T13:29:00.002+08:00

last night was the first night i went swimming and was forced to sit on top of a guy's shoulder.....for a fight!!!AHHHA...
shit! blushing!!!!!
PAISEH nia!!!
but i was indeed FUN!!!!! =p
to the DP....sorry for being so heavy...
and wayne! u owe me a meal for scratching my hand and causes an abrasion!
GRRRRRR!!!!
too bad Riggie and svei was not there.....
if not ...the night will be more EXCITING.....=))))

nothing is permanent......

2011-11-03T16:51:00.002+08:00

there is no forever....
even u believe there is.....
though the thing is under your control..
but there's alwayz something that will destroy wat u planned....
just like ppl...
they come and go....
excluding hi-bye frenz...
true frenz may come into your life at a certain stage of life...
but in the end...
for no reason....
they will drift themselves away...
and you end up not being close to them anymore...
hmmmm.....
is this wat life tells us to learn??
to be independent enough???
to be tough enough to let go ......
but y do ppl leave at the first place??
i dun like that! no one does!
GRRRR! *trying to be childish for a while*
anyway.......bye past....hello present.....
i will be grateful and appreciate wat i have now ...=)
just that i miss those childhood memories...and those stories that are left behind...and kept in those dusty cupboards of mine....=)
i treasure every moment.....=)
i love you lee ji ching....=) your past is just awesome...=)
and thanks mommy and daddy for making me who i am today....=))))

glass

2011-11-02T22:39:00.002+08:00

i felt so very bad and disgusted at this MOMENT>......
pls give me a hug and tell me everything is fine and its over....
give me a new life...
live with me.....
support me..
hold me.....when i fall....
just pls dun let me fall...
im too fragile now.....

empty.....

2011-11-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

i just dont understand wat am i thinking recently.
temptation shouldnt have rule over my brain and rationality...
i kept telling myself not to do it....controlling myself so badly..
and in the end...it all ruin due to my poor self control....
plus....
having some small issues with my dad recently...
sorry mom...for giving you that annoying voice when u speak to me on the phone..
sometimes.....
5 calls a day is just too much....
not forgetting another 3 calls from dad....
isnt it abit too over??
im not complaining or waT.....
but wats the point???
and because i voice out my opinion on that...
my dad got pissed off.....
and din bother to pick up my call...
yea....wats my problem now...!~
damn !!!!!!!
wats wrong today????
not to be violent here....but someone pls slap me!!!!!!!!!!
i need to feel something....
coz i felt empty at this very moment......=(

Creepy past

2011-10-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

Aiks!!!!! Have to keep a distance from u....... Scared!!!!!!!!!!

another weekend which worth my time...=)

2011-10-30T22:49:00.003+08:00

it was indeed an amazing weekend i had......
this week was hectic.....
it started off when i join the Halloween night committee....
and thank god it ended quite well last friday.....=)
although we still didnt manage to cover the cost...
at least we tried our best....
everyone...=) we deserve something as a gift...
so.....i've made a decision.to have fun in genting ..supporting my fren TEAH's sister
who made it to TOP TEn finalist of Miss Astro Chinese International...=)
and without letting us down...she made it into top FIVE!
that was so awesome!!!!...=)
little did i noe that the most ideal weight for my height is 48 kg!!!!
OMG.....guess how much i exceeded it....Shyt!!!
and without fail...i ate a lot...and spend A LOT!!!!!!
aiks!! I felt so guilty!!!!!!! i need exercise....!!!
the most important part is that i didnt study at all......20 lecture notes....still counting.....untouch.....=) wan mei!!
and i screwed my friday test....
not studying a single thing before exam.....
yey! nice job for screwing the test...obtaining a C...=) ahha..,
was grateful enough that i didnt failed the test...=)
well....this weekend ended well indeed...
it was tiring....and i lost most of the precious studying time...
but for me...it was worth the time..
coz i dun really like to take life so seriously..
occasional fun is needed at certain stage of our lives....=)
frenz worth the investment of my time...
without you all...i wont be wat i am today...=)
thanks every single one of you...=)
EC,C,G,,WH,T,SW,KY, SH...and many more of coz.....=)

a note to you.....

2011-10-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

sometimes....i just felt so guilty.....
not thinkin bout your feeelings when other ppl thought bout mine...
i dun really noe how u feel....
but i just hope that everything goes fine with u and your group of frenz...
i dun quite understand how u think now..
coz din talk to you for quite some while..
sometimes...i just have the urge to walk towards you and ask u personally how do you do??? and how u felt recently.....
coz i dun see the smile in your face when ure with us...the intec ppl...
anyhow.....if u need a fren to talk to..
im here.....
just wanna let you noe...that youre never alone...
if u get to see this.....
i hope that u could stand bac up...and smile like u use to smile..
in front of us...the INTECans....
not just smiling to your new group of frenz out there...
come bac to us if u wan to.....
again...take care..

I'm so rude!!!

2011-10-23T01:31:00.002+08:00

Oooo..... Mom's cooking for me today!!!:) it's like a birthday party in advance:)))) never had this kind off feeling for such a long time..... But any how...... I felt so bad at shouting and raising my voice today.... May be my fren was right.... Ive change to become rude..... But what do you expect me to do if I was constantly being shouted at my face and accused for doing something that I've not done wrong??? Yes... I have to defend..., but the onli way to stop being bullied is to be louder than them.... But for a girl it's too rude to do so.... I'm very very sorry... Y am I constantly doing something that is wrong???? I mean wat should I actually do when the same situation happens again and I felt insulted ???I noe they don't mean it coZ they are my frenz..... But I seriously dunno how to react other than being louder.....:( I have to think !!!!!!!! And change a way to counteract the problem..... Nites frenz!!!:))

thanks for everything my frens....=)

2011-10-20T18:26:00.003+08:00

its my blog......
its my feelings.....
if anyone felt insulted bout wat i wrote....
im sorry.....
arent true frens are those who accept you for who you are....
if you arent....and i cant help it either...
i would love to take this opportunity to thank all my frenz...
who realy supported me and accompanying me through those difficult times...
and those who never leave me alone when im down.....
you noe who you are....=) all of you....=)
not forgetting those who alwayz follows my blog post....
i heart you guys man!!!!
you guys rock!!!! <3 <3

2011-10-19T19:51:00.002+08:00

I saw her walking towards your rOom as I walk to uni for choir practice.... For that very moment... My heart sang..... I couldn't answer my mom's question properly..... As if my heart is controlling my brain..... I'm out of control.... The feeling of out of control is so scary...... The feeling now is much more calm..... I need to try to learn how to let go of you.... How many times should I get hurt before I could let go..... I need to remind myself.... If he is happy with her.... Let it be... Afterall she Is a more compatible partner compare to I am......well she is definitely more bEautiful than I am.... And her character suits him well enough..... From the bottom of my heart..... I wish you can be tOgether happily..... Sorry I couldn't force myself to be frenz with her.... As long as you're happy .... Even if I'm hurt.... I will be happy too......

you shut the door......

2011-10-19T18:09:00.002+08:00

the moment u shut the lift....
you shut my heart......
you noe that i was on my way....
the least thing that u can do .....
which is to keep the lift open and let me come in...
but then....you shut the door....
well....
sorry for ignoring you all these while...
but...
youre still a wonderful fren in my heart...
although i dun agree on wat u usually do....
but thats you.....
as a fren....i have accepted for who you are...

i notice that u seldom mix with intec ppl anymore..
is it because of me...alwayz mixing around with them???
which makes you feel uneasy...??
im sorry.....
and i hope that u can find true frenz around IMU....
which will be there when u need them....

but your gesture today....
is really disappointing....
i guess.....i gave you too much hatred after all.....
im sorry......
hope to see you smile soon.....=)

指望

2011-10-18T00:21:00.000+08:00

怕不怕被拒絕怕不怕被省略
你怕不怕被淪落在宿命中妥協

當真愛宣告從缺
驕傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎
儘管你抱歉懺悔
真心一旦墜跌就不能飛

別指望我諒解別指望我體會
愛不是點頭就能挽回
快樂或傷悲沒什麼分別
心碎到終點會迎刃而解
別指望我諒解別指望我體會
愛不是注定要填你的缺
太多的是非來不及杜絕
更不想依戀這殘缺的美
殘缺的迂迴

从心出发

2011-10-17T21:35:00.003+08:00

几时我才能学会成熟的爱？？？
几时我才会学会原谅？？？
仿佛内心里有一个恶魔。。。一个天使。。。
我知道做人要宽恕。。。容忍。。。
不要执著。。。要向前看。。。。
做人要学会体会别人的感受。。。。体会人生。。。
时间会过。。。痛也会逐渐消失。。。
爱也是。。。
曾经爱你的我。。。如今已不再执著的爱你。。。
因为你不是我要的。。。
宽恕你做的一切。。。会让我更快乐。。。
可是。。心里的恶魔天使。。。此终不让我做到这一点。。。
很抱歉。。。。因为你的粗心。。。善忘。。。
忘掉了你曾经的诺言。。。
让我十分失望。。。
我既然做了当初的决定。。。就应该能够勇敢的接受成果。。
很抱歉。。。之前一直的责骂。。。
我知道是不应该。。。
可是当时的我实在无法接受现在的你。。。所做的一切一切。。。。
失望的当儿。。。爱也逐渐消失了。。。
也许我应该勇敢地面对将来有关你更多更多难听的消息。。。
鼓起勇气。。。。从心再出发。。。。
寻找真正的我。。。。
再次的抱歉。。。我不是要动粗的。。。。

2011-10-17T12:58:00.002+08:00

pls dun pretend that nothing has happen between u and her...
if u did it....
just act the way both of u used to be.....
DUN FAKE IN FRONT OF ME!

光良 - 握你的手

2011-10-11T17:34:00.000+08:00

专辑:光芒
握你的手
作词：姚若龙　作曲：光良　编曲：吕圣斐
山顶的风凉的想钻进我内心
沉默是我们最近唯一的话题
看曾经亲密的爱慢慢像友谊
爱是流星　一坠落就不停
我们尝试让彼此差异能隐形
遗憾的是回避不能解决问题
当我疲倦的凝望妳憔悴表情
再不舍得　也该让你远离
握你的手坚持到最后一秒钟
哪怕爱要冰凉了　
至少让回忆是暖的
了解比爱难多了　
我们都尽力了
也许温柔是停止(再)挽留
握你的手　像耳语轻声说保重
让眼睛就算湿了　不只是痛也有感动
以前每一次挥手都为了再握手
但这一次是为了放手

fuck off!

2011-10-11T13:33:00.003+08:00

just got to noe that he fetch her out for lunch....
and yet i still feel something.....
which means i haven let go of it completely...
but i shouldn have give a damn bout it!
nah! do watever you wan!
i will just live my life to the MAX! i wan to be HAPPY! =)
with all my frenz around....
i think i can live a better life without him!
yea! just FUCK the hell off!
im way better than u think i am!
i dun need to be a girl who needs a man....
i wan to be the girl a man needs!
and i will be ...one fine day....=)
the right man....=)

我怀念你。。。。。。

2011-10-07T21:14:00.003+08:00

这几个星期以来。。。
自己都在避免这有关于你的东西与事情。。。
爸妈给的鼓励。。不能白费！
当我一开始想你时。。。。
潜意识的就会阻止自己再回想。。。。
我不喜欢那种伤心了。。。。
因为他让我过着颓废的生活。。。。
这几天都有到公园散步。。。
早晨。。。看见别人一家大小地到那儿。。。
散散步。。。有说有笑的。。。好温馨。。。好幸福。。。
可是。。。我知道。。如果我和他在一起。。。
是不可能有这样的结局。。。。
那。。。。我何必执著呢？？？
我要的是幸福美满的家庭。。。。
不是怀疑这怀疑那的。。。
我只能告诉自己。。。。
那个在我眼前的。。。。已不是我喜欢的那个人。。。
我喜欢的那个颜锦圣早已不存在了。。。。
那些回忆只能被好好地怀念。。。
我爱的人。。。已死了。。。。。。。

hearts.....mommy daddy...=)

2011-10-02T23:03:00.003+08:00

thanks mom and dad!!!!
u 've made my day feel revive again.....=)
i will study hard to repay you all....
you all are my everything.....
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! FOR ETERNITY!!!!!!
i miss you all!!! will study hard till next next week when we get to meet again.....=)
and i will start to be active again!!!! WOHOO!!!!!

YEAH baby!

2011-09-30T19:24:00.004+08:00

if there's a day.....
i could go to a serene place...where there are beaches.....
warm weather......nice city view..from the swimming pool.....
with my BFFs......
surrounded by lots of Europeans....
and ppl whom i dun noe......
wouldnt it be perfect?????
wearing bikini......showing off! =p! hahaha....
well....this is another dream of mine!! HAHAHAH.....
travel around with a carefree lifestyle....
back packing...enjoying ......pampering myself with five star services....
OHHH!!!!! i juz wan this kind of vacation so BADLY!!!
time for recruitment! and saving money!!!! for this luxurious BIKINI trip!!!!
hottie on the way! !!!!!~~~~

forget it!

2011-09-29T20:47:00.004+08:00

and you!!!
doesnt worth my tears anymore!
yes.....i may turn weak upon seeing you...
but i will grab my fist tight...
and not to fall apart ever again.....
no matter how u hurt me by sweet talking other girls...
i wont give a damn!
coz i deserve a better!~
a one who really noes how to appreciate me for who i am....
as for you....im so sorry....
u let go too many chances of mine.....
im lucky to have let go early......
a guy who sweet talk random girls...is just not my cup of tea...
and yea.....
im in the mood to search for a better man...
who truly deserve my love.....=)

unfren

2011-09-28T18:11:00.004+08:00

A guy who loves you....
never let you go.....
after seeing this...
im pretty sure that he doesnt deserve my love anymore...
got a sudden urge to unfren him...
coz i dun wan myself to noe bout his doings now....
coz he didnt even care bout me when im sick...
wat kind of guy is this???
in short.....
i regretted loving him.......
a man who doesnt care.......

reflection: but he didnt do wrong......he onli treated u as a fren......so y should he care?

sorry.......

2011-09-27T19:52:00.003+08:00

sorry for untagging......
and thanks a lot for tagging...
im very grateful.....
but sorry....
i can either be the one or no one...
im sorry for still loving you.....
and i hate myself for doing so.....

pain...i need you to go away....

2011-09-27T18:12:00.002+08:00

i really dun understand myself....
y should i hold on like that.....
he made it so clear that he is over me....
y should i stay in this mood.....and refrain myself.....wasting my time....on him!
y do i find it so hurtful when i saw him deleted my picture when i told me not to.?
y do i felt the pain when he always spends him time with her and not me???
sometimes...i rather wish that we had not started anything before...
coz all these memories are killing me...
if we werent together.....at least we are still frenz now...
but now....im sorry....
i cant be frens with you anymore..
coz u dun treat me as one.....
well......this is wat god planned for me...
to suffer for a better....
i have to persuade myself that he is not good enough for me and i deserve a better...
if he does really love me....
he wouldnt have do such things to me.....
and yea....i shouldnt love him anymore....
tell me how to let go.......pls.....
i dun wanna feel that pain anymore...
it already last for 3 months...
pls go away......

gimme good health and luck pls!!!!

2011-09-26T19:47:00.002+08:00

my day was great........=)
knew a new fren....and.....joined the IMU cup swimming competition......
unbelievable right??
i haven ever join a sports competition before except for TKD...
phew....
not feeling well today....and i cant concentrate in lecture today.,..
but i need to thank my fren who fetched and accompanied me to the doctor today...
wish that the sickness will go away aS soon as i wake up.....
dear lord....
i have limited time now....
pls grant me a healthy body......

its ok......

2011-09-25T23:10:00.003+08:00

hey...hows life??
long time din talk to you edi.....
forgive me for doing so...
any how....u forget wat u promised to do...
u said u will spend this weekend night with me and talk to our heart;s content...
but it ended up like nothing had happened...
never mind...
youre just like that to me everytime..

again....as long as youre living happily without me....
its ok.....
may be im just not part of you......
im not emo when i write this...
i just felt that i miss him at this very moment when he is not....
its ok......i will alwayz get through it....
forgive me for not talking to you....
just wish tat u will stay happy....
as you alwayz do....i can see it from your smile....

and yea.....im emo last night....
as u din even request for fetching me but rather fetching another girl whom you knew just for one month....may be lesser than that...
watching her sitting beside you was a total eye sore for me...
im sorry for feeling that way...
but you really did let me down...
if this is wat u meant by good frenz....
im requesting a resignation from you....
im sorry....youre just not treating me as one...
for this ..im totally disappointed......
stay off me .......!

you lost me......

2011-09-23T15:42:00.003+08:00

once you noe.........
wat you did....
break the relationship and trust we are suppose to have..
you have lost one true fren who really noes how to appreciate for who you are...
dont regret one day...
saying that you lost one true fren......
coz you did too much things that ruin the whole relationship with her....
u dont understand the real meaning of treasure yet....
but when u do....
everything had been made apart....
coz of everything u did.......

from priceless to worthless....

2011-09-23T14:09:00.003+08:00

A stranger once again.......
after all that uve done..
ive realize that u have not keep up to your promises.....
u said we are both good frenz...
but we end up like not knowing each other at all...
i can even feel that im not occupying any places in your heart anymore..
and youre not there for me anymore..
being lost of one fren who once noes how to appreciate me is a very disappointing thing to notice...
if your aim is for me to hate and forget you?
well..congratulations....you did it!
you rather fetch someone u noe for a month rather than me...
and not even care to bother how am i suppose to go there...
is a fantastic job that make me so disappointed in you.....and all your decision and act.....
in conclusion....
you dun care bout me anymore..
and i finally notice..
how worthless i am to you....
DONE.....

audience...

2011-09-22T14:22:00.004+08:00

thanks for coming.......
not sure bout your presence was it meant to be mine..
closer as it may seem....
i wish both of you happily together.....
coz i can see you have regain the smile you once lost when youre with me....
i will stand aside...
as long as your happy when youre with her....
and im glad that she gave you happiness......
may be im just not good enough to deserve your love......
good luck....and all the best....

fading off......

a bad morning.....

2011-09-22T10:20:00.002+08:00

i dreamt of you again today......
we were spending time together......
happily in love.....
but suddenly i woke up...
all things shattered into pieces.....
its never real.....
y should i dream of these kind of things???
dun let me start my day like that can u?
punch me.......i wish to get some physical hurt that can hurt even deeper than my heart....
juz to overcome that pain....for at least a couple of days....
its too much for me...
can i just leave .......?

strong without you........

2011-09-20T22:07:00.005+08:00

yea....a new life......
i noe that no matter wat i do....
i will never get back the one i once love......
i miss every single part of you....
and yea bout the trigger...that cause the breakdown in me...
im so sorry.....to cause a scar in the relationship between u and him....
its all my fault...
i think the only way for me ........
is really to give u time and give myself time to move on......and carry on with our lives...
if i ever do a single thing to safe back this relationship....
i'll kill myself because everything i tried to do....
which i think it helps...makes things worse.....
i dun like that....
so i shall leave you alone....
i'll let you go....coz i love you....
this is wat u wanted....and longing for...
i should not have restrict you with my selfishness to get back together with me...
as long as you are happy....
i will continue my journey of life...
with bits of despair....
but not to worry....
i will grow strong.....i will......

together

2011-09-13T13:55:00.003+08:00

there have been some time...i stop blogging...
rather i start by writing a diary of my own......
i wouldnt wan my emo feelings affects so many people who is reading my blog......
btw...im good enough to stay strong.....
here......i'm trying to accept the truth now....
the stress management lecturer says...
if u cant avoid...then u have to accept....
i'm accepting the person whom i loved not becoming that close to me now..
but rather another girl...
im not sure what is he thinking now.....but deep down...i really hope that he still have me in his heart....
not that i dun wanna open my heart to someone else.....
just that my current heart is preoccupied with him......
youre still living in me.....=) i'll juz give myself sometime.....
to accept he is alwayz close to the girl.....may be i will juz walk away if its too much for me?
not sure....i'll see how it goes......
hope that he is doing good now......=)
juz went for PBL.....coincidentally, im in the same group and we sit beside each other...
thats the onli time i could be close to him...
i'll treasure these moments together.... although we are not together......
and i will control my tears whenever its possible.......=)
look forward is wat i need to focus on.......stay optimistic man! <3

let go?? how???

2011-09-02T18:48:00.003+08:00

when can i learn to be more optimistic??
in the first place.....am i that pessimistic?
dun think so.....
i have a lot to say....but duno where to start...
i felt a lot these days.....
but seriously dun have the time to blog.....
to forget all those bits and pieces of me and him....is hard.....but im struggling with it....
i wish i couldnt remember a single thing.....
now that i can feel how much i meant to him ...
its like from a piece of gold....from the start
and now.....turns into ashes...
im not in his sight any more.....
every single time i saw him...he will be with another girl.....
how is it like...if we never have met each other???
and we never start anything before....?
will it be better???
if u ever have the chance to see this....
STOP ASKING HOW I FEEL! its non of your business anymore!
if i felt sad...and disappointed of wat u are doing....so wat??
its my feelings! dont u EVER care of it any more!!!!!
just get out of my life! i dun wanna noe a single thing bout you !!!
go on with your life....im already your pass.....
hurt me more! so that i can let u go!
youre on the right tract now...
just continue doing it and i swear to god....i can let go of you!
iam not being pessimistic here....
but then....just that i noe that i love you more that u do....
noeing that u let go of me in such a short time......
hurts me so bad.....and i frequently tell myself to forget and let u go....
phew.....i need a new life.....without u.....can i????
just leave me alone.....until the day i die......

why?

2011-08-20T19:30:00.002+08:00

sigh.......
y did he treated me like that?
its just so hurtful...
wat did i do wrong till i deserve such an awful payback?
last time....we were soulmates...
then...it became....good frenz.....
suddenly went into becoming a stranger...
now....worst than a stranger???
am i even your fren now?
y do u have to do this to me?
y do i alwayz have to cry because of u?
wat i am sad of is that we came so far..and ended up like that...
i dun like to be in this situation with u....
pls......and y?

dun congratulate me......i dunno wat to respond.....

2011-08-18T18:22:00.003+08:00

i would prefer NOT BAD!! or rather.....hey! GOOD EFFORT!
other than CONGRATES!!
i dun like it!
onli those who get stars deserve congratulations......
i think i didnt do well........
sigh......should have done better.......
so dun congratulate me pls........

praise with your own heart....

2011-08-18T17:36:00.002+08:00

sometimes...its just too sad to see yourself standing short ......
in such a concrete big jungle......
not like to compare....
but yea.....youre just nothing.....

thinking bac...when i;m in a relationship...
wat my boyfren told me...means a lot...
i kinda remember most of the words he said to me......
just hoping that every boys out there with a gf...
respect her and praise her onli because u really felt she deserve the praise...
dun do that just to create a topic or so...
isnt it too fake???

i miss those times....dont u??? =)

A level stars....are not meant to be mine...

2011-08-18T15:06:00.003+08:00

sigh....
got a knock from the cruel clothe hanger.....
wat does it tyring to signal me??
telling me to wAKe Up and stop dreaming.....stop being lazy???
or is it a punishment for not doing that well in EXAM???
yes...may be an A is wat i deserve...
but sometimes.....
when all of your frenz around u got an A star...
you'll feel ....so.....unsatisfied....
but when i come to think of it...
A star.....is for those who really deserves it.....
coz they are really gifted to have that special talent of their own....
as for me.....
i've discovered long time ago that ....
i;m always getting the normal things .....
i noe a certain knowledge...but i'm not specialized in it.....
i practise the skills....but i'm not good at it...
i learn something...but its like i'm not born for it...
in short......there 's a cantonese proverb for that..." half pail of water"....
thats wat i am....
sigh....
i wish i have those stars with me.....

你是我家。。。。

2011-08-12T23:33:00.004+08:00

人面不知何处去。。。桃花依旧笑春风。。。
今天旧地重游。。让我回顾与你在一起的时光。。。
短短的一年里。。。发生了那么多事情。。。
以往在那儿与你拍照。。很甜蜜。。
可是今天的我和你。。
这么像个陌生人去了。。。。

有时真的很想像两夫妻一样。。。
吵过了架。。。就和好如初。。。
当什么事情都没有。。。
可是。。你当初的决定是那么的坚决。。。
仿佛到了无可挽救的地步。。。
我害怕了。。。
想爱却不能爱。。。。
想抱你也不能抱。。。
很辛苦。。。很不习惯。。。
当初和你在一起是那么的亲密。。。
何能说断就断？？？
每当我想起只有我们两个的时刻。。。。
就实在什么都不再重要。。。因为我还爱着你。。。
可是。。。我真的不知道。。。
三个月以后的你。。。会不会另找新欢。。。
那时候才打算吧。。可能现在你疲倦了。。。
我也在你心里慢慢地消失。。。
你选择了自由。。。我选择了放手。。。
不再缠着你。。。是因为我爱你。。
很想你。。。。你可以像以前一样亲我吗？？？
很想回你家。。。。。和你一起生活。。。。好吗？？？

your purpose......=(

2011-08-12T23:26:00.003+08:00

wats the sorry for????
sorry for not having me in your heart??
sorry for it starts to fade as time goes on??
if this is wats youre apologizing.....
i rather not to accept it.....
i dont like your sorry......
coz it force me to accept another cruelty of reality.....

she has his heart.......

2011-08-08T19:37:00.002+08:00

he seems not missing u anymore...
juz got wind that he's going for a second vacation with her again..
wow...
another shocking news that made me cry....
i'm just so disappointed in him....
i'm so sad now....
what should i do???
its so obvious that he placed her above me....
i'm not that important anymore..
i'm nothing to him any more.....
y am i still thinking of him all the time???
yes...
she really has a place in his heart...
while me?? i'm just another one who got dump very badly...
his heart has left me....
he really did........how cruel is that???
stab me......let me feel the real pain...
let this real pain outweigh the cruel pain he did to me....

.....

2011-08-08T10:09:00.000+08:00

i'm so disappointed in you........

xie xie ni yong yuan ji de wo....=) wo hen gan dong....=)

2011-08-05T12:02:00.004+08:00

de dao nin de ren tong....
wo tu ran jue de yi qie dou bu zai zhong yao le..
xie xie ni...auntie...
xie xie ni de zhao gu..
xie xie ni hui yong yuan ji de wo....
zhe ju hua......rang wo de fu chu jue de
shen me dou zhi de....wo hen gan dong...T.T
tu ran hen xiang bao ni....
yin wei.....shi zai tai xiang ni le...
ni wei wo dai lai le an wei....
gan ji ni....=)
wo ye yi ran de .....hui ai ni....=)
take care of your health yea....=)
miss you alwayz.....

sad morning...

2011-08-05T11:04:00.002+08:00

a sudden sms recruits all the nostalgic memories .....
sigh....i cant go bac any longer...
i miss those moments a lot...
how i wish when i wake up....everything is juz a dream...
nah....today is a sad start...
i'm unhappy again....=(

TatA!

2011-08-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

BYE facebook.....=)
till then......old fren....

a new life......soon...=)

2011-08-04T21:42:00.003+08:00

i'm not sure.......i'm lost......kinda fed up with how i'm living now..
ppl work.....to make full use of their time...
me?? i facebooked...blogged.....
wat am i doing???
felt so fed up with my life..
i need a new life now....
forgetting the pass and move on.......
i'll promise myself not to facebook so frequently....
i'll just blog to get those who cared updated.....
and yea.....
i have to do somthing meaningful now...
pls.....do something ...lee ji ching.......
pls.....!!!!! keep yourself busy......
btw.....hope that my eyes will recover....soon.....=)
will be back to new horizon for a fresh new start...
just like how i got back up 2 years back....=)

Cheer!!! LEADER!! =)

2011-08-04T15:53:00.004+08:00

LIfe goes on as usual....=)
eyes are dry....
may be is because i went for a body check up two days ago....
and the eye drop that made my eyes dilate.....
cause it freakin dry...
hmmm....and a hep B injection. too......
everything as usual.....
phew.....dunno wat happen lately...
2days ago....my elbow injured....
when it recovers....
my neck''s turn.....twisted....duh....
enough of suffering....
now my eyes......EEEWWW!!!!
hmm...i miss my school's canteen food all in a sudden....
wanted to go bac...but it would be too weird if i were to go bac alone...
right....
time to get my heart and soul ready for my a level result....
hope it will turn out as wat i wished for it to be ......
i pray hard to god....
i can lost faith in love....but not my work!
YEA! cant lose anymore!!! =)
GO FIGHT WIN! =p!

such a disappointing day.....

2011-08-03T12:13:00.002+08:00

my dream was alwayz right...
when i dream of u and her together....
the reality alwayz turns out to be true.....
from today onwards...
i'm not going to care bout it anymore..
coz u'll never have a place to stand in my dreams ever again....
NO MORE!

never worth it....

2011-08-03T11:52:00.002+08:00

i just noe that u will never remember me....
and if u do.....we'll never talk as we used to...
this is how it is now....
you'll never tell me where u went....
or how u've been doing......
as times goes on....
we'll have no more topic for each other....
you'll have your frenz....to talk to....
and you no longer need me...
thinking back on wat i've given u....
its never worth it.....
signing off with a broken heart.....

lup dup......

2011-08-02T19:09:00.001+08:00

when your heart starts beating for someone else out there....
its time...
for my heart to stop beating for u......

stupid

2011-07-31T22:19:00.003+08:00

i noe i have no right to say anything or comment anything now....
but yea.....
i felt that i'm again....
jealous! WTF!
y am i alwayz tat stupid....???

and yea....no matter how much u've change...
i will still be by your side ....
to listen to your problem.....

。。。。

2011-07-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

原来到现在。。。
再回想。。。
我还会哭。。。。

我最情爱的

2011-07-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

很想知道你近况 我听人说 还不如你对我讲
经过那段遗憾 请你放心 我变得更加坚强
世界不管怎样荒凉 爱过你就不怕孤单
我最亲爱的 你过的怎麼样
没我的日子 你别来无恙
依然亲爱的 我没让你失望
让我亲一亲 像过去一样
我想你一定喜欢 现在的我
学会了你最爱的开朗
想起你的模样 要什麼错 还不能够被原谅
世界不管怎样荒凉 爱过你就不怕孤单
我最亲爱的 你过的怎麼样
没我的日子 你别来无恙
依然亲爱的 我没让你失望
让我亲一亲 像朋友一样
虽然离开了你的时间 一起还漫长 我们总能补偿
因为中间空白的时光 如果还能分享 也是一种浪漫
关系虽然不再一样 关心却怎能说断就断
我最亲爱的 你过的怎麼样
没我的日子 你别来无恙
依然亲爱的 我没让你失望
让我亲一亲 像亲人一样
我最亲爱的 你过的怎麼样
没我的日子 你别来无恙
依然亲爱的 我没让你失望
让我亲一亲 像过去一样

尺

2011-07-29T21:57:00.004+08:00

活在这个世界上。。就是要自在。。
的确世界很不公平。。。
付出的不一定得到相等的回报。。
可能有些人活得比我们苦。。
看见别人那么苦地为钱烦。。。
而自己却轻轻松松的。。。买这个买哪个。。
是奢侈。。还是别人花得起？？

其实我们不必羡慕他人买什么。。
穿什么。。。带什么。。。
别人穿，吃，喝的。。。都不管你事。。
别人有本事花。。是别人的本事。。。
无需比较。。。无需自卑。。。无需批评。。。
因为自己有的东西别人可能没有。。。
批评别人只是因为自己没有比别人好。。。
批评了。。就好像说一些重伤·别人的话。。。来安慰自己。。。
做人要懂口德。。。
为什么要计较那么多？
别人想做什么就让别人做啦。。。
只要不伤害到自己就可以了。。。。

人心中都有一把尺。。
能容忍多少。。就看那把尺有多长。。。
尺越长。。越看得开。。
越看的开。。就不计较那么多。。。
当然。。自己的身家为底线。。。
因为在这现实的世界。。。
很多人因为钱而身不由己。。。
有钱人可以很大方。。。也可以很吝啬。。。
没钱的人。。。一样可以很富有。。因为他心中富有。。
也可能因为穷而不能和其他人一样大方。。。

终结。。计较得太多。。。
只会让自己更辛苦。。
就算别人如何与你计较。。。
自己应该了解计较的痛苦。。。
别人计较是因为他们还未知道此道理。。
现在你比别人懂更多。。。。
何必为还未开窍的人痛苦的？
如果你想得通。。。又做得到的话。。。
想必您心中的尺。。。一定比谁都长。。。=）

A diary's Boy...

2011-07-29T01:53:00.002+08:00

boys who write diaries....

noes better bout themselves...

not only to keep tract of what they are doing everyday...

and trying to make everyday a meaningful one...

but to let them understand the value of doing things..

how they felt...

it gives them time to think and reflect bout themselves..

and i have a thought that boys with a personal diary

makes a better person than those who dont.....

coz they understand themselve more ......

原来

2011-07-27T20:03:00.003+08:00

突然想念你的体温。。

想起我们过去的一切一切。。

冷时有人在身边拥抱是一件幸福的事。。。

曾经的幸福。。

让我重新感觉你的体温。。

让我刹那间感觉与你在一起是的温暖。。。

原来你曾经给我幸福。。。

温暖我想念。。。因为是你。。

XX!

2011-07-24T20:43:00.003+08:00

Our LAst MemoRieS togetHer...=)

星期日。。。
这个星期日。。很不平凡。。。
因为。。今天是我与两位最要好的朋友最后一次见面的一天。。。
今天以后。。。就要到年尾才能见面。。
不然明年。。才能再次遇见。。。
两位都是对我不离不弃的好友。。
没有了他们就没有今天的我。。
在这里。。。祝福你们。。
学业进步。。身体健康。。出入平安。。。
再见了。。。red devil & haruko ai....><!
will miss u all a lot!
thanks for being there....
as alwayz......=) XOXO!

un...earasable....

2011-07-22T17:16:00.004+08:00

how to forget those memories we had?
and those secrets we share...
the moment i close my eyes when i'm alone...
memories and secrets of both of us played like a video in my mind...
it was......sweet.......
perhaps.....it will remain as my dream forever.....
deep down in my soul.....
nope...it cant be erase.....

旋律